I have been working as a full time therapist (yay!). I am a clinician in Triple P, which is an amazing parenting program. However, my last day is Friday. And I start a new full time outpatient therapist job the following Monday. I have not been at my current company for too long, actually it has only been 6 months. It was a very difficult decision for me to decide to leave. If you know me, you know I stick things out. If I make a commitment I will see it out no matter what. However, recently I have begun realizing that my life is and will only ever be one. I will only live this time and this moment once. Do I want to live these moments somewhere that makes me unhappy and upset? Not really. I have gotten to the point that I can say that I deserve more. I am a great therapist. I love helping people. I love working as a team with other clinicians. I deserve to be at a place that loves their job as much as I do. I also deserve to work somewhere that will treat everyone fairly and where the clinicians respect the company, the government, and their clients. Who will not try to fix something by making up for what the team members are lacking by placing it all on the newest member. You cannot fix a house with a crappy foundation by putting a new roof on it. It just doesn't work that way. I am so thankful for everything I have learned and all of the growth that I have done. I am especially thankful that they have given me the chance to stand up for myself and decide what I want without letting others thoughts and feelings change my decision. I am excited for the new opportunity I am being presented and I am excited to be working with some amazing therapists.
I have had other areas of growth in my life lately. I am not going to go into them, but these last few months have been crazy, amazing, beautiful, difficult, challenging, gratifying, heartbreaking, and butterflies-in-your-stomach inducing. I feel like I am still trying to catch my breath, but I am not complaining. I am so thankful for all of the different opportunities, experiences, and people that I have gotten to meet. Sure it hasn't all been a field of roses, but those difficult times make the great times that much greater.
It is easy to lose yourself in the negative. I did that often. It is a constant process and reminder for myself to look for the good or positive in everything. There is always some positive in any situation if you look hard enough. The positive may not also be in that moment, but that situation may lead to something good.
